Shady's back, tell your friend?
Okay not really but I am back and not for all the fun meeting Superman, moving 3000 miles, and falling in love with the ocean fun like last time. This time we are having a different bit of fun and I don't know if fun is the right word. Stressful, heartbreaking, long, exhausting, mind-boggling, eye-opening, frustrating, long (again I know), time consuming, needle poking, doctor visiting and tearful are probably better words to describe our current journey. Welcome to infertility y'all!
A back ground? So we did the whole meet each other, fall in love, move across the country crap and then we were like, let's add to our chaotic life with another human. Great plan right? Sure, it really is and it really was and however this turns out it will be the path that was meant for us and I will accept it and love it. Here's the kicker, having a kid is not as easy as it was when you're 18 and on birth control and your antibiotics counteract it, trust me. Here's where our journey begins....
Superman's Swimmers (how fun is that to say?)
Superman had a vasectomy back in 08? (Not my testicles and I'm not going to hunt down med records right now) so we went through the VA to try and get it reversed, we did that in February 2016. One side was successfully reversed. Since the reason he had it done was because a hernia blew apart one side and he was like "hey do the other while you're in there", so one side was repaired. Count #1 after surgery, May 2016 showed active sperm at about 250,000 but with great motility and morphology at 90%. Normal sperm counts are
^That was from 10/10/2018. Today is 1/26/20. Over a year ago I started writing about our infertility journey. Wanna know why I stopped? I KNEW NOTHING! I knew it sucked that we had to drive down that bumpy road, but I didn't know how bumpy it would be.
I'm not going to bore you with number today and will give you some good. We had a successful retrieval and have 4 little frosties hanging out in their freezer apartment until we transfer, hopefully in March. It took a lot to get us to this point and we battled injections, failed IUIs, more injections, blood draws upon blood draws, and OHSS. AND IT'S NOT EVEN BEGAN!
What I want everyone reading this to know is that it will be okay, or it won't be, but unless you dive in head first and take that challenge you will never know. If you think even for a second that you will always wonder what could have been, then I suggest getting a consult and talking to a doctor. Get your labs done and have an ultrasound to get the nitty gritty. It is your family, your journey, and your mental health. Remember it will take a toll on all of those things and more, but living with regret is just something I couldn't do.
So for now thank you for reading this chopped up weird as shit blog that took 15 months to finish.
